My project pan

Hey Everyone, for those of u who i know thru glamazon or those of my friends who i know. I have started getting back into all things makeup related some of u will know what a project pan is and for those of u who don't what it is is that when u have alot of makeup or beauty products u use a number of picked items until u hit pan or use up the 10 or 15 or whatever number u decide. U also don't buy any makeup or those products until its over. I have made an exception on this, thing i get as gifts or swaps im doing  i wont use but will buy for. I was told a while back that due to my marriage breaking up and  being out of work due to an injury and being lonely by not having alot of ppl around me that i have started to use makeup as a crutch, well i don't see it that way . I had  but also still have prolly due to certain ppl in my life still self esteem issues. I am now actually starting to feel good about the way i look and caring how i look when I'm out and ppl see me. I don't want to look like i just rolled out of bed lol. Well I think that's there opinion and I don't have to agree. Well back to the subject at hand here is my pan items I'm not going to list everything if there is something u would like to know what it is just ask i will also post as i finish or hit pan on these items they are alot since i wanted to give myself options. I also will post pics of the beauty things i finish up as well since im not just picking thoes things out to use up. Thanks guys and keep smiling ,Shelley.  From top to bottom   Face products, eye products, cheek and then lip :)

Why do we torture ourselves

Hey Everyone or should i say TGIF lol. I am writing this blog today about something that hits close to home with many of us as i know it does me. Im talking about our apearance and weight and how we see ourselves and how we let others see us. I belong to a group on fb and its about beauty and all things related and sometimes its just about chatting with ppl who share similar interests as u. I have noticed some posts about weight loss and what to do what to cut out what good stuff to eat and all that it entails and i think alot of us look to se what others have done and hope to try it and if by magic works for us as well. I know for me i am all about new things to try and do to lose weight I have struggled as long as i can remember with my weight and the scales have gone up and down for years its a constant worry of mine that i am trying to overcome. I feel why should we let others or magazines or tv dictate to us how we should look or feel about the way we look if u are healthy and happy about the way u look then woo hoo thats great. I remember as a kid the comments oh you are so pretty if only u would lose weight or the are u sure u need to eat that even now as an adult my mother with the your putting on weight again comment  and im back again to feeling like the kid who has her hand in the cookie jar.I have ppl who tell me all the time i am beautiful or pretty or good looking and im fine the way i am but when i see me i dont see what they see and i think alot of us are like that. If we felt good about us all the time we would all be happier right?. I have also noticed recently on our group there are a few ladies one in perticular that make videos on youtube about doing what they love and they get made fun of on how they look or anything. i see it like this thoes ppl that have the nerve to make hateful comments and personally attack them are insecure about themselves and they must bring others down to built themselves up and that is wrong thoes ladies have alot of guts more than me for sure to post videos on yt about things they love i couldnt i have a hard enough time posting a pic in fear of getting a negative comment so i say keep your heads up girls and guys and dont let them win u are stronger than u know.If we are happy with ourselves then who cares about what others say or what the ideal look is in magazines or tv if more of us including myself adapted that way of thinking everyday then we would be alot happier and we wouldnt have so many ladies with self esteem issues or self worth issues. I know I have weight to lose for my health as i have medical issues that require me to be a smaller size but i am happier now with the way i look recently than i have in a long time and thats due to the people i have in my life at this time. I know im rambling again lol so in closing i feel that any way u look from a size 2 to a size 22 we are all worth the same and should feel that way.
HUGGS to u all and keep smiling.  Shelley